In February 2016 I joined a club that I never aspired to; but suddenly, my name appeared on the roster. I was diagnosed with triple-negative breast cancer.
My first reaction after my diagnosis was not apostasy--I did not blame God and I did not abandon my religious beliefs--and it never crossed my mind to ask God the proverbial question, "why me." Instead, I sat in my car and through my tears, I said a prayer, made three phone calls—one to my mom and two to dear friends—started my car and headed back to work.
Now don't get me wrong, I was not stoic, but I was optimistic. I had concern… My world, as I knew it, was about to change and I did not know what the future held for me. However, like it or not, this was my process and in this process I had a choice—be sad and down or take God at His Word… "Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand" (Isaiah 41:10). I put my trust in my Lord and Savior and thanked Him for the people He would position along the way to support and care for me during this journey.
I have nothing but praises for the doctors and staff at Barnes Jewish Christian Hospital and Siteman Cancer Center. Day one, I and my family were important and I received first class service and treatment starting with Dr. Margenthaler, breast surgeon; Dr. Leonel Hernandez-Aya, oncologist; and Dr. Imran Zoberi, radiation oncologist; and their staff and the Siteman team. During my interactions, there were no surprises as they were clear and thorough about my treatment and what I could expect.
My Moment of Clarity
I was not in control of the outcome, but there was joy in knowing: 1) Jesus said, "By His stripes, I am healed" (Isaiah 53:5). I knew I was going to be okay. 2) He had prepared me for this moment (spending time in and trusting His Word). And, 3) God did not give me breast cancer, He gave me a testimony. I knew I would be VICTORIOUS!